I found out today that it's getting hard for me to get my Robinul (Glycopyrrolate) at the PBS rate. At the moment, the palliative care people are doing all they can.
Without this vital drug that increases my quality of life massively, being on the PBS it costs $35 a day. That's a LOT when you're on a pension.
Time to lobby my local MP to get it on that list.
Without glycopyrrolate, I produce too much saliva, which given the hole in between my stomach and lungs, means I spend all day coughing it up through my lungs. Not pleasant at all and literally life destroying.
Here's my call for Glycopyrrolate to be added to the PBS ASAP.
Tuesday 13 September 2011
Disappointment and Hope
We went to see the oncologist a week ago today to get the good news that since my lung infections have finally cleared up that we could start the magical mystery tour of another round of chemo that would of course have saved me.
The truth of course is never as simple as we'd like. He said that the chances of infection coming back whilst on chemo were reasonably high and that as you can't just turn the chemo off like a light (it keeps on working for six weeks after you stop) chances are, that any infection if it returned to my lungs could be fatal. If that wasn't sobering enough, the "success" rate of chemo at my stage is really only 20-30%. In an almost cruel twist of fate, success here isn't defined as a cure, but an additional two to three months of increased life expectency. Woo hoo!! That can also mean two to three months of diminished quality of life given what a "boost" chemo can be to your sense of welll-being. For me, at this stage, I think exploring some alternatives might be better than resigning myself to a slow, inevitable decline into death.
On Friday, I'm going to see a new doctor in South Yarra who has been recommended by my cousin's doctor in Sydney. He works in both Western medicine and Chinese herbal medicine, so understands the interactions between the two. I've heard that combining chemotherapy with traditional Chinese medicine is practised widely in China, so has a long history of clinical studies and applications. It's said that it greatly boosts the efficacy of the treatment and can give patients a much better outcome than chemotherapy alone. One door closes, another door opens.
It's getting hard to ignore the reality that I do officially have a terminal form of cancer. Most of my medical team have told me that it will beat me within a year. I've said before that I'm not worried about dying myself, but the horrible grief that loved ones go though upsets me much more. That said, there's still too much left in life to live. I need more than a year,and I need that time to be relatively healthy, so I can actually do these things. I want to travel, I want to create a business that will outlast me and help to look after those I leave behind. A legacy, I guess.
Hopefully, this new doctor will have some fresh answers and an optimistic attitude. The pessimism, (or is it just realism?) is a real downer and I'm sure can't be helpful when you're trying to remain positive.
Wish me luck!
Sunday 31 July 2011
A bit of good news
Maybe that's being premature, but it's better news than I've had all week.
I had a call this morning from my oncologist, who was planning to come and see me this afternoon. He's not now, due to the fact that he dislocated his shoulder at Mt Buller yesterday. He told me that he didn't think it was too late to start a secondary course of chemotherapy and that I should make an appointment to see him at Cabrini when I get out of Monash, which is looking like being on Wednesday.
In any case, it was good to hear something other than pessimism from a medical professional.
I had a call this morning from my oncologist, who was planning to come and see me this afternoon. He's not now, due to the fact that he dislocated his shoulder at Mt Buller yesterday. He told me that he didn't think it was too late to start a secondary course of chemotherapy and that I should make an appointment to see him at Cabrini when I get out of Monash, which is looking like being on Wednesday.
In any case, it was good to hear something other than pessimism from a medical professional.
Saturday 30 July 2011
It won't be a problem for me
If, despite my best efforts to beat this insidious disease, it does actually beat me, I'm not worried at all for my own fate. I'll be gone, dead, having left behind all my worldly woes. It's the people in my life who I love and who love me that I'm worried about.
There's the husbands and wives and the unmarried life partners who are left behind to pick up the pieces of their lives, often without the benefit of much support to help them. We all make plans with our partners and it's a tragedy when time runs out before those plans get the chance to come to fruition. All we can do is our best to make sure affairs are in order to minimize the possibly of an intestate estate delaying the vital funds a person needs when they lose their partner.
No parent ever expects or wants their child to predecease them, no matter if that child is 4 or 40. It would be one of the most emotionally scarring events in their lives, that they would live with forever. Sure, time would heal the wounds to a degree, but still...
Then there are all the other family members. Sisters, brothers, nieces, nephews, who may be too young to understand what's going on. Grandparents, especially the WWII generation have seen harder times and lost more of their families than most of the rest the population. That said, they are not so inured by loss that their memories of grandchildren arriving and all that goes with being a favourite Nanna or Pa leaves them unaffected. In all likelihood, the stoic attitude of that generation can hide deep grief.
Brothers and sisters who grew up together, never would have imagined that their sibling would one day get sick and die prematurely. It's hard all round - except for the one who's actually dead or dying.
Then of course are all the friends, close and merely acquainted. A good friend dying leaves a huge gap in a person's life.
These are the people I worry about more than me. As I say, if the worst comes to worse, I'll never even know, but for everyone else, it's the start of a whole new world of grief and pain that will last for as long as it lasts.
It's nice to be remembered, but nobody wants to be the cause of all that grief.
There's the husbands and wives and the unmarried life partners who are left behind to pick up the pieces of their lives, often without the benefit of much support to help them. We all make plans with our partners and it's a tragedy when time runs out before those plans get the chance to come to fruition. All we can do is our best to make sure affairs are in order to minimize the possibly of an intestate estate delaying the vital funds a person needs when they lose their partner.
No parent ever expects or wants their child to predecease them, no matter if that child is 4 or 40. It would be one of the most emotionally scarring events in their lives, that they would live with forever. Sure, time would heal the wounds to a degree, but still...
Then there are all the other family members. Sisters, brothers, nieces, nephews, who may be too young to understand what's going on. Grandparents, especially the WWII generation have seen harder times and lost more of their families than most of the rest the population. That said, they are not so inured by loss that their memories of grandchildren arriving and all that goes with being a favourite Nanna or Pa leaves them unaffected. In all likelihood, the stoic attitude of that generation can hide deep grief.
Brothers and sisters who grew up together, never would have imagined that their sibling would one day get sick and die prematurely. It's hard all round - except for the one who's actually dead or dying.
Then of course are all the friends, close and merely acquainted. A good friend dying leaves a huge gap in a person's life.
These are the people I worry about more than me. As I say, if the worst comes to worse, I'll never even know, but for everyone else, it's the start of a whole new world of grief and pain that will last for as long as it lasts.
It's nice to be remembered, but nobody wants to be the cause of all that grief.
Back in Hospital for some bad news.
Having been home from hospital for a few weeks, I was expecting to have had my various lung infections cleared up and be back on track, nutrition-wise. However, I was still not able to eat or drink anything. I could manage lemonade icy poles and iced water, and that was about it. Even then, I'd cough up phlegm from my lungs. Naturally, I assumed that I still had some residual lung infection.
That wasn't the whole story though. I called my GP and told her how I was getting by on around 100 calories a day and losing weight fast. I'd gone from around 130kg to 75kg in six months with 13kg lost in the past month alone. I asked her to call my Gastroenterologist at Monash and see what to do. He said to get straight to Monash for a gastroscope and a feeding tube insertion.
The GP arranged for the ambulance to pick me up and bring me to Melbourne.
All seemed like it would be ok until after the gastroscope. The doctor gave me the grim news that he thought the cancer had returned. Six weeks prior, at the last gastroscope, all looked clear and on the way to healing. Now the stomach was inflamed and there was evidence of a hole leading directly from the stomach to the lung. This, he thought was a direct result of the cancer returning and had probably been brewing in the background for a while. In any case, it explained why I constantly had fluid on the lungs and was hacking up phlegm all the time. The lung and stomach were touching each other and the cancer had made a direct conduit between the two.
I asked the doctor what all this meant in terms of a revised life expectancy. He said "weeks". As I was still coming out from under the anesthetic, I didn't really take it in straight away.
The following few days involved my parents coming down from Sydney and lots of other questions to the doctors about further treatment options. The doctors here at Monash, as well as my surgeon didn't hold out any hope for further treatment, saying that any more surgery would be essentially futile and more chemotherapy would most likely be fatal, especially if I was to develop another lung infection while my immune system was being compromised by the chemotherapy. Radiation was also out of the question as I have already had the maximal dose of radiation therapy last year.
So, I have two choices. The first and easiest is to roll over and accept the bad news and wait to die, or explore my options. Not being ready to die, I've decided to explore my options.
I've asked the doctors to suggest other specialists for me to consult regarding a second opinion, both in Melbourne and Sydney.
There is an oncologist known to the family in Sydney who has kept my cousin alive for seven years after initially giving her six months to live with stage four breast cancer. I will make an appointment to see him as soon as possible with a view to getting some treatment underway.
I know the odds may be stacked against me with this, but they always have been. It comes down to those two choices. Roll over and accept death or fight it and maybe survive for years to come. We all know of people who've defied the odds and beat cancer despite being given a grave prognosis. Why not me too?
That wasn't the whole story though. I called my GP and told her how I was getting by on around 100 calories a day and losing weight fast. I'd gone from around 130kg to 75kg in six months with 13kg lost in the past month alone. I asked her to call my Gastroenterologist at Monash and see what to do. He said to get straight to Monash for a gastroscope and a feeding tube insertion.
The GP arranged for the ambulance to pick me up and bring me to Melbourne.
All seemed like it would be ok until after the gastroscope. The doctor gave me the grim news that he thought the cancer had returned. Six weeks prior, at the last gastroscope, all looked clear and on the way to healing. Now the stomach was inflamed and there was evidence of a hole leading directly from the stomach to the lung. This, he thought was a direct result of the cancer returning and had probably been brewing in the background for a while. In any case, it explained why I constantly had fluid on the lungs and was hacking up phlegm all the time. The lung and stomach were touching each other and the cancer had made a direct conduit between the two.
I asked the doctor what all this meant in terms of a revised life expectancy. He said "weeks". As I was still coming out from under the anesthetic, I didn't really take it in straight away.
The following few days involved my parents coming down from Sydney and lots of other questions to the doctors about further treatment options. The doctors here at Monash, as well as my surgeon didn't hold out any hope for further treatment, saying that any more surgery would be essentially futile and more chemotherapy would most likely be fatal, especially if I was to develop another lung infection while my immune system was being compromised by the chemotherapy. Radiation was also out of the question as I have already had the maximal dose of radiation therapy last year.
So, I have two choices. The first and easiest is to roll over and accept the bad news and wait to die, or explore my options. Not being ready to die, I've decided to explore my options.
I've asked the doctors to suggest other specialists for me to consult regarding a second opinion, both in Melbourne and Sydney.
There is an oncologist known to the family in Sydney who has kept my cousin alive for seven years after initially giving her six months to live with stage four breast cancer. I will make an appointment to see him as soon as possible with a view to getting some treatment underway.
I know the odds may be stacked against me with this, but they always have been. It comes down to those two choices. Roll over and accept death or fight it and maybe survive for years to come. We all know of people who've defied the odds and beat cancer despite being given a grave prognosis. Why not me too?
Monday 11 July 2011
Bloody Candida Again
For the past month, I've been coughing and sputtering from what I thought was just some run of the mill chest infection. As it turned out, it was a return of that evil candida fungus. This time, it wasn't just causing painfully annoying mouth ulcers, but being in the lungs, actual pneumonia.
I called my doctor a couple of weeks ago to tell her they the antibiotics I was on didn't seem to be working and despite being on stronger and stronger antibiotics, it seemed to be getting worse. She told me I should go to hospital for some tests and to have some IV antibiotics. That sounded like a good idea.
I called an ambulance to take me to Wonthaggi Hospital. They took lots of blood for testing and admitted me to a private room to isolate me in case I was contagious. Some tests take longer than others. The one for fungal infection took three days. So, after three days in hospital, we finally knew what to treat - candida. A course of fluconozole seemed to do the trick and both the coughing and highly coloured phlegm reduced dramatically, to the point where they sent me home. Now after finishing that course, it's starting to reassert itself already. Luckily I have another course waiting to be picked up from the chemist.
It worries me, though that it should come back so quickly after being assured by the Dr at the hospital that only one course was necessary, I appear to need more medication.
I should find out where I can get this stuff - pau d-arco. Looks like it has both anti candida and anti cancer properties.
Pau d-arco
I called my doctor a couple of weeks ago to tell her they the antibiotics I was on didn't seem to be working and despite being on stronger and stronger antibiotics, it seemed to be getting worse. She told me I should go to hospital for some tests and to have some IV antibiotics. That sounded like a good idea.
I called an ambulance to take me to Wonthaggi Hospital. They took lots of blood for testing and admitted me to a private room to isolate me in case I was contagious. Some tests take longer than others. The one for fungal infection took three days. So, after three days in hospital, we finally knew what to treat - candida. A course of fluconozole seemed to do the trick and both the coughing and highly coloured phlegm reduced dramatically, to the point where they sent me home. Now after finishing that course, it's starting to reassert itself already. Luckily I have another course waiting to be picked up from the chemist.
It worries me, though that it should come back so quickly after being assured by the Dr at the hospital that only one course was necessary, I appear to need more medication.
I should find out where I can get this stuff - pau d-arco. Looks like it has both anti candida and anti cancer properties.
Pau d-arco
Sunday 10 April 2011
Home Sweet Home
They let me come home from hospital on Friday. It's so nice to be home and to have my own bed. Much more comfortable than the hospital bed, as good as a fully adjustable electronic bed sounds, when it's too small with a rubber mattress, it loses some of it's appeal.
At first, after leaving hospital I was a little apprehensive. After 6 weeks inside, the outside world and the 2 hour car ride home seemed daunting. Nothing to worry about of course, but it did take all of Saturday to recover from Friday.
Earlier on Friday I had a gastroscopy with the associated mild anesthetic, followed by hours of waiting for the various reports and visits from the dietitian with my supply of Ensure Plus, then another few hours before the pharmacist came with my plethora of drugs to bring home. In any case, it was a tiring day and I basically slept it off on Saturday.
Today is much better.
From now on I should be better every day and eventually back to normal, hopefully better than normal in some cases.
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At first, after leaving hospital I was a little apprehensive. After 6 weeks inside, the outside world and the 2 hour car ride home seemed daunting. Nothing to worry about of course, but it did take all of Saturday to recover from Friday.
Earlier on Friday I had a gastroscopy with the associated mild anesthetic, followed by hours of waiting for the various reports and visits from the dietitian with my supply of Ensure Plus, then another few hours before the pharmacist came with my plethora of drugs to bring home. In any case, it was a tiring day and I basically slept it off on Saturday.
Today is much better.
From now on I should be better every day and eventually back to normal, hopefully better than normal in some cases.
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Thursday 7 April 2011
The Hospital Experience
Time to fill in some of the gaps regarding the hospital experience.
On the whole, our public hospitals do a fantastic job of looking after the sick. Overall, my experience in one of Melbourne's biggest public hospitals has been positive. Of course there are things that could and should be done better, but I'm sure that's the same in the private system as well.
Physiotherapy
Before I came in to hospital, my doctors made a big point about how important post-operative physiotherapy would be to speed my recovery and help prevent phlegm build up in the lungs. Avoiding lung infection being the goal.
On the first day after the operation, while still in a heavy post-op drug haze, the team from physio arrived and got me out of bed, into a chair and we had a short walk around some part of ICU. All went well and l was told how well I did. I was left with the impression that phyio would be back every day or so to assist me with my recovery while I was in hospital. The reality of course was a little different. Over the next five weeks, I think I saw them maybe two or three times after getting the doctors and nurses to get them here. I suspect their main role is for new patients to kick start their recovery rather than to have an ongoing treatment relationship when a patient stays in hospital for longer than normal. This is a shame because greater physiotherapy involvement would help speed up recovery. As long as you follow their initial advice and do the deep breathing and coughing exercises all is not lost though and you can still get some benefit from Physio's advice, if not their actual involvement.
Pain Relief
As far as pain relieving drugs are concerned, I'm sure Ketamine is up there with the best of them. I was on a ketamine PCA for about three weeks after the operation and can honestly say, was almost pain-free the whole time thanks to it and the fentanyl patches on my skin.
Ketamine also has a darker side to it. It's a fine pain killer, but after three weeks I found that I was starting to experience side effects that could literally be described as wierd and wonderful.
First the wonderful.
It started out as hallucinations of white faced cute pussy cat faces in a kaleidoscope puffing their cheeks in and out when I was swishing water in my mouth to combat the dryness I was suffering.
Then i started to have dreams that could I have somehow recorded them would have been masterpieces of cinema too clever for me to contemplate otherwise. The sheer clarity of thought. I'd even convinced myself that I was doing some short haul time travel to the next day and back.
Now for the wierd. Let's just say nightmares and leave it at that. I consider myself lucky I didn't get the spider hallucinations that some others get on it.
More to come later.
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On the whole, our public hospitals do a fantastic job of looking after the sick. Overall, my experience in one of Melbourne's biggest public hospitals has been positive. Of course there are things that could and should be done better, but I'm sure that's the same in the private system as well.
Physiotherapy
Before I came in to hospital, my doctors made a big point about how important post-operative physiotherapy would be to speed my recovery and help prevent phlegm build up in the lungs. Avoiding lung infection being the goal.
On the first day after the operation, while still in a heavy post-op drug haze, the team from physio arrived and got me out of bed, into a chair and we had a short walk around some part of ICU. All went well and l was told how well I did. I was left with the impression that phyio would be back every day or so to assist me with my recovery while I was in hospital. The reality of course was a little different. Over the next five weeks, I think I saw them maybe two or three times after getting the doctors and nurses to get them here. I suspect their main role is for new patients to kick start their recovery rather than to have an ongoing treatment relationship when a patient stays in hospital for longer than normal. This is a shame because greater physiotherapy involvement would help speed up recovery. As long as you follow their initial advice and do the deep breathing and coughing exercises all is not lost though and you can still get some benefit from Physio's advice, if not their actual involvement.
Pain Relief
As far as pain relieving drugs are concerned, I'm sure Ketamine is up there with the best of them. I was on a ketamine PCA for about three weeks after the operation and can honestly say, was almost pain-free the whole time thanks to it and the fentanyl patches on my skin.
Ketamine also has a darker side to it. It's a fine pain killer, but after three weeks I found that I was starting to experience side effects that could literally be described as wierd and wonderful.
First the wonderful.
It started out as hallucinations of white faced cute pussy cat faces in a kaleidoscope puffing their cheeks in and out when I was swishing water in my mouth to combat the dryness I was suffering.
Then i started to have dreams that could I have somehow recorded them would have been masterpieces of cinema too clever for me to contemplate otherwise. The sheer clarity of thought. I'd even convinced myself that I was doing some short haul time travel to the next day and back.
Now for the wierd. Let's just say nightmares and leave it at that. I consider myself lucky I didn't get the spider hallucinations that some others get on it.
More to come later.
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Sunday 3 April 2011
Last Week in Hospital Please
I'm really hoping that this week will be my last in hospital. I'm at that stage where I'm well enough to be bored to tears, but too sick to run off. The doctors were saying a week ago that I should be able to go home in a week or two. That makes this week the "or two".
When I do go home, it will be with a renewed lease on life. Having not smoked since coming into hospital, I see no reason to take it up again when I get out. Quitting smoking will have two main benefits as far as I can see. The main one being the reduction in the risk of the cancer returning which is my top priority and the huge amount of money saved over time by not spending between $16 and $20 every day on them.
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When I do go home, it will be with a renewed lease on life. Having not smoked since coming into hospital, I see no reason to take it up again when I get out. Quitting smoking will have two main benefits as far as I can see. The main one being the reduction in the risk of the cancer returning which is my top priority and the huge amount of money saved over time by not spending between $16 and $20 every day on them.
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Thursday 31 March 2011
Well, that wasn't supposed to happen
Last time I wrote on this blog was over a month ago, when I was about to come to Monash for my Ivor-Lewis esopho-gastrectomy.
That happened. The operation went ahead as planned and all looked good/as expected for the first few days afterwards. Things soon fell apart though.
Firstly, the join between the esophagus and the remaining stomach hadn't taken. There were holes. This is where the pain began. I was rushed off to Radiology to have a chest drain essentially rammed through my back with a local anesthetic while lying on the CT scanner on my front (bearing in mind the abdomen had only recently been closed up from the operation.) suffice it to say, it hurt - a lot. It's almost funny to remember being told by the radiologist to lie still whilst writhing in agony.
I still have that drain and associated bag attached. It's collecting a lot less fluid and gunk, so I guess that's a good thing.
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That happened. The operation went ahead as planned and all looked good/as expected for the first few days afterwards. Things soon fell apart though.
Firstly, the join between the esophagus and the remaining stomach hadn't taken. There were holes. This is where the pain began. I was rushed off to Radiology to have a chest drain essentially rammed through my back with a local anesthetic while lying on the CT scanner on my front (bearing in mind the abdomen had only recently been closed up from the operation.) suffice it to say, it hurt - a lot. It's almost funny to remember being told by the radiologist to lie still whilst writhing in agony.
I still have that drain and associated bag attached. It's collecting a lot less fluid and gunk, so I guess that's a good thing.
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Wednesday 23 February 2011
Counting down the days
Including today, it's only five days until my surgery.
I went to the Pre-admission Clinic yesterday, and as suspected, it was a largely wasted trip. Not to mention having to wait over two hours after my appointment time to see the doctor for less than 10 minutes. He got to fill in his form though, so it wasn't a complete waste of time, I guess.
I also had a chest x-ray. This could have been done last week, when I went for the Anesthetic Clinic. Oh well, ask the patient to make two 4 hour round trips and wait around for hours so the hospital can tick a few boxes. I understand that there are procedures to ensure quality care, but it really does need to be better coordinated.
I also ran into my surgeon in the corridor. He confirmed the 28th and told me it would be in the afternoon.
I'm lucky to live in a country where we have free health-care, so I'm not complaining about that. A patient's agent might be the way to go. Someone who knows all the procedures, who can plan the ticking of the boxes with minimal intrusion into the patient's time. Do all the box ticking in one visit perhaps.
I went to the Pre-admission Clinic yesterday, and as suspected, it was a largely wasted trip. Not to mention having to wait over two hours after my appointment time to see the doctor for less than 10 minutes. He got to fill in his form though, so it wasn't a complete waste of time, I guess.
I also had a chest x-ray. This could have been done last week, when I went for the Anesthetic Clinic. Oh well, ask the patient to make two 4 hour round trips and wait around for hours so the hospital can tick a few boxes. I understand that there are procedures to ensure quality care, but it really does need to be better coordinated.
I also ran into my surgeon in the corridor. He confirmed the 28th and told me it would be in the afternoon.
I'm lucky to live in a country where we have free health-care, so I'm not complaining about that. A patient's agent might be the way to go. Someone who knows all the procedures, who can plan the ticking of the boxes with minimal intrusion into the patient's time. Do all the box ticking in one visit perhaps.
Friday 18 February 2011
Pre-admission Clinic
The pre-admission clinic is booked in for Tuesday, next week. From memory, this was pretty much a waste of time and petrol, but something you have to do so the hospital can put all the requisite ticks in their boxes.
It is supposedly for picking up any undiagnosed problems which could cause surgery to be cancelled on the day.
Well, as someone who has been in and out of hospitals and attended more than 30 doctor's appointments over the last year, I'd be surprised if they've missed anything.
It is supposedly for picking up any undiagnosed problems which could cause surgery to be cancelled on the day.
Well, as someone who has been in and out of hospitals and attended more than 30 doctor's appointments over the last year, I'd be surprised if they've missed anything.
Thursday 17 February 2011
D-Day, 28th Feb
I found out today that they are planning to operate on the 28th of February, which means I'll be spending my 43rd birthday in ICU.
I have mixed feelings about the surgery. Intellectually, I know it's the best hope of a cure and will give me the best chance of living a relatively normal life in the long run. The other side of that is probably fear-based, but makes me think that I feel fine now and am enjoying good health otherwise. Why spoil it all with major surgery that will take 3 months to get over to the point where I can do things like go shopping or go to work?
I know that if I do nothing, the cancer will come back, probably worse than before and would probably be fatal. So... To the operating theatre! Cut it out, get rid of it and get on with it. I have to think like that.
I have mixed feelings about the surgery. Intellectually, I know it's the best hope of a cure and will give me the best chance of living a relatively normal life in the long run. The other side of that is probably fear-based, but makes me think that I feel fine now and am enjoying good health otherwise. Why spoil it all with major surgery that will take 3 months to get over to the point where I can do things like go shopping or go to work?
I know that if I do nothing, the cancer will come back, probably worse than before and would probably be fatal. So... To the operating theatre! Cut it out, get rid of it and get on with it. I have to think like that.
Sunday 13 February 2011
Friday 11 February 2011
Getting closer
Had a call from the hospital today. I'm booked in for an anesthetic clinic on Wednesday. I guess this means my op won't be too far away.
Thursday 10 February 2011
Surgery, Take 2.
Well, I got my biopsy results yesterday, and unfortunately, the radiation and chemo didn't completely kill of all of the cancer cells. If I'm honest, I always knew that was probably more likely than the 50/50 chance I gave it originally.
All hope is not lost though. I'm being booked in for another go at the Ivor-Lewis Oesopho-gastrectomy in 3 - 4 weeks. I'm not looking forward to the operation and the 3 month recovery, but it really is my best chance of a cure. I'm grateful that my doctors are still treating with curative intent. The palliative path would be a tad more depressing.
All hope is not lost though. I'm being booked in for another go at the Ivor-Lewis Oesopho-gastrectomy in 3 - 4 weeks. I'm not looking forward to the operation and the 3 month recovery, but it really is my best chance of a cure. I'm grateful that my doctors are still treating with curative intent. The palliative path would be a tad more depressing.
Friday 21 January 2011
Long day
I had the gastroscopy today. I got there at 11.30 and didn't go in until 1.30. I have no idea why there was such a long wait. It wasn't too bad for me, just poor Joseph, who came to drive me home, had to wait until about 4pm before we could go home.
I didn't get to see the doctor, so I'll have to wait until Feb 9 to get the results. In the meantime, I'd rather not know anyway. If it's good news, it'll be worth the wait, and if it's bad news, I'd rather have another couple of weeks of ignorant bliss.
I didn't get to see the doctor, so I'll have to wait until Feb 9 to get the results. In the meantime, I'd rather not know anyway. If it's good news, it'll be worth the wait, and if it's bad news, I'd rather have another couple of weeks of ignorant bliss.
Wednesday 19 January 2011
Friday on my mind
I'm going to Monash on Friday for a gastroscopy. They'll take a biopsy to see if there are any active cancer cells left after the chemo and radiation. I'm hoping not. I don't want that operation. I'm ready to get back into things and another six months of waiting for surgery and recovering isn't on my agenda.
Here's to some good news.
Here's to some good news.
Wednesday 12 January 2011
It's been a while
Since I last put a post on here, I've finished all my treatment that's been planned so far. I'm feeling good and to look at me, you'd never know that I've had cancer.
That said, I had a CT scan in early December and the report said that there was no sign of the tumour, so I'm happy with that. Next, my surgeon wants me to have a gastroscopy and biopsy to see if there are any active cancer cells left at the site of the original tumour. Fingers crossed that there aren't If there are, he'll want to make another attempt at the Ivor-Lewis Oesopho-gastrectomy. Of course, if I need it I'll have it, but I'd really rather not need it.
While I'm getting good news, I found out that my cousin, a few years younger than me has advanced bowel cancer. It's spread to her liver and she's started chemo. I hope she'll be OK.
That said, I had a CT scan in early December and the report said that there was no sign of the tumour, so I'm happy with that. Next, my surgeon wants me to have a gastroscopy and biopsy to see if there are any active cancer cells left at the site of the original tumour. Fingers crossed that there aren't If there are, he'll want to make another attempt at the Ivor-Lewis Oesopho-gastrectomy. Of course, if I need it I'll have it, but I'd really rather not need it.
While I'm getting good news, I found out that my cousin, a few years younger than me has advanced bowel cancer. It's spread to her liver and she's started chemo. I hope she'll be OK.
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